Late Night Babbles

So here I am. It's 3 in the morning, and I have nothing to do. I can't sleep. I usually sleep so well too. It gets me thinking... how many people are out there awake at this time, surfing profiles, or blogs, or whatever? The only thing wrong with being up this late - at least in my circumstance - is that I have to wake up at 7 in the morning. You see, 5 years ago, being up this late would never bother me; but now, I find myself yawning by 11 AM if I don't get at least 6 hours of snoozing. Maybe you're only allowed a certain amount of sleepless nights, or maybe I'm just getting older. I actually need the rest these days, cause all I EVE do is work.

On a brighter note, the year is almost at its end! We can all look forward to a better brighter year than the last, can't we? I sincerely hope that people really take to their new year resolutions. I plan on sticking to mine, but sometimes I forget my resolution on account of being really drunk on New Years Eve! Actually now that I think about it I haven't really kept up with ANY resolutions. So this year I think I will find one! I don't have much time left! It's a fight against the ticking clock. All I have to do is think of that one thing that I know will make me a better person. That is what resolutions are about, right? I mean, would anyone make a resolution that would make their life worse? I guess it depends on what the person considers better or worse.

Better or worse; those words have been making an appearance in the story known as my life. What does that mean these days? It's like the saying "ride or die." Does anyone consider these words anymore? Even with resolutions, or relationships, or even being a fan of a celebrity... are we really considering the consequences of these words? Well, as far as the better part goes, I don't think anyone has a problem with that. We all love a thrill, and the thrill is fresh and new when we know it is for the better. But in the worse scenario... well I draw a blank. I don't think anyone I know has stuck around for the worst of anything. As a matter of fact I know very few people who follow anything through. This includes diets, addictions, shopping problems, you name it. Marriage included.

Except for my grandparents. They understand the meanings of the words better or worse. They've been together since they were in their teens! They love each other to death and take care of one another. Now that is true unconditional love. I love my grandparents, but who doesn't?

Black Ops

I can't hear myself think anymore.

There are massive explosions in the distance, and my mind is spinning.

I think I'm going to lose it. My mother always warned me about this feeling.

She said we all had to deal with it someday, and that it was inevitable.

I think my mother is nuts. How can anyone learn to deal with this? There goes a bullet.

And another. Bang bang bang, baby. The fucked up thing is that most women have to hear these shots firing. Digital shots if you must be literal. Some of us women pick up the pixel guns and shoot children. Yes, children. What did you think? That those tiny scoundrels and their vulgarity would be spared? No, sir. Not in this household. We rip all those tiny awkward middle schoolers to shreds, then we call their parents and tell them to clean up the mess. Other women, like myself, tolerate these daily shootings, but never partake in them. No, no, no, my darling. This would be a travesty on their part. And lastly there are the women who just hate war, hate guns, hate shootings, and definitely hate video games. The video games steal their boyfriends, and so they wander about doing other things so as to avoid the mass slaughter of the virtual soldiers

Haters.

There's a new wave of psychos out there in our society. They haunt the streets and no one seems to notice. Just when you think you're safe there they are right behind you. Most people never notice, but if you pay attention on just the right day you just might find one of these horrible pests!

Sure, these monsters seem like typical common everyday characters; but they're not. In fact, they are truly the best masters of disguise. So skillful in fact, that not even your smart Aunt Matilde could figure out their purpose or intentions. And Aunt Matilde sees through everything!

It would seem as though these characters are up front and honest, and most of the time they are. What they fail to confess to you is that they have a double agenda. Oh yeah. They've booked you for more than one appointment at the same time of the day, if you get my drift! Either way you look at it these so called people will never reveal to you what their true purpose was against you, even if you think you've solved the problem.

In my honest opinion there is only one way to deal with these individuals. It is always simple, cut throat, and to the point. No one should have to tolerate this, and you are no exception! If you find yourself being hated on, and you almost certainly will at some point; then make sure you always, and I mean always treat them kindly. No seriously. Treat them kindly, but not important. You know?! Like the way you would treat a mentally challenged person or a little kid that didn't know he sucked at baseball.

No matter which way you find yourself being hated on, always handle it with class. And remember... You can't just go around hating on everyone either. It sucks to be hated on, and some people can't deal with the stress of it all. So make sure you're generally off the Haterade. I'm serious. Don't drink that shit.

Photographs....

So I've been scaling the net for a while now, and I have been hunting down some nice photographs. My house has been undergoing decorative therapy and I want to put freaking art on the walls. But then I realized I should take some photos, like I used to a while back now. I was actually pretty good and got some thumbs up for my black and whites. So maybe soon I will be investing in some kind of camera. I figured it could inspire my creative writers block that I have felt lately. Although I will admit that I am feeling the tingling of a good story in the back of my mind, but who knows what my brain will come up with....

I've gotta get at least SOME shots with my cheap camera. It takes decent pictures though. So we'll see.

So far I put up a picture of a couple kissing in front of The Eiffel Tower. It has always been a dream of mine to visit Paris... Who wouldn't hit up Paris? Not just for the romance, either. Hell no. I want to see the cafe's, museums, art, you name it. I'm there. So that picture just had to go into my bedroom.

In my hallway there is a picture of Old Times Square. I can't quite put my finger on the year the picture was taken, but I can tell you that Coca Cola HAD been invented, as there is an ad in the picture. So I'm assuming the 1920's, or maybe the 30's. Again I could be wrong, but who knows.

Change can be a good thing sometimes, I think. For instance, in the case of my home, it wasn't that cute when I moved in. And just a little love and care and a couple bucks on something for the walls makes it look nice. I bought some art, added it to my already small art collection, including sconces, and look..... my house feels like a lived in home, and it feels good. I did it all on my own and I feel as though I have confidence in running my own home.

Theres something to be said about decorating your first real place where you're "allowed" to do so. I've been living in efficiencies for a while now, and I couldn't do anything there...So now having the opportunity to get the things I want; the paint color I want, the sofa I want, the decorations I want...it feels damn good! And I'm damn proud that I could do it, and that I can continue to do so! Woo Hoo! Yay me!

I've been feeling really good about life lately. Maybe that means something, maybe not. Either way I'm riding the wave of joy as long as it lasts, baby!

A/C IS A LUXURY!!!

Don't you just hate it when people try to make your life a living HELL just because you did the exact opposite of what THEY wanted you to do? It really amazes me and my hubby, Tony so much! Check this out. We live in a cut off part of a home. There is a wall separating our side of our home with our landlords. They have a bedroom and a kitchen, we have two bedrooms and no kitchen. And we pay $900 a MONTH! Ridiculous? I know! So when we moved in here during the cold winter months of January...YES IT DID GET REALLY COLD IN SOUTH FLORIDA THIS WINTER... and we had no need for cold, relaxing and luxurious air conditioning. Well, we rented a room out to a friend of mine, Sandra. The landlords apparently don't like her, whatever. I guess it's because Bertha, the landlord's wife feels intimidated that a young single gal is living here. So what do they decide to do? Turn the FREAKING AIR CONDITIONING offffff!!! Can you imagine? I don't know if anyone else knows this, but it is VERY hot in Miami, Fl. Not only is it very hot, but it is very humid as well. I literally live next door to the Everglades, which I happen to love visiting from time to time. Now, I want to know why in the hell these people do this. When Tony approached them about it all they could say was that it was cold on their side and the A/C is never turned off. They also complained to us about the electric, which is ridiculous cause it is 6 people living in one house, so all the electric is not even being wasted by us! I just don't understand. We pay $900 for this place and we can't even control our own air conditioning? So we all sat down and had a family meeting and decided to get the hell out! We can pay 100-200 dollars more for a bigger place with a KITCHEN! I love to cook and am constantly looking for new recipes. I really enjoy making my family happy with food. So now we are leaving on July 1st and guess what????!!!! The landlords turn the air off for longer periods of time, and some days not at ALL! This has gotten so bad that we can't sleep at night, and Tony and I's sex life has even slowed down a bit. Who wants to get even MORE sweaty and produce MORE heat? It really has us frustrated. Not to mention they cut the internet that they shared with the whole neighborhood cause WE WERE PAYING for it!!! They didn't even put a code on the network to lock it. Now when we tell them we aren't going to pay for something they let everyone use... they put a code. Too bad for them because we get an open connection from another neighbor, so it really is no sweat off our backs! You never realize what a luxury air conditioning is until you don't have it. So many South Floridians forget that without the air conditioning we would all be crazed savages running rampant through the streets of Miami Dade County.

In the Beginning....

So this is it, huh? This is the miraculous world of blogging.
As a writer, I try to find ANY means of putting my words down.
I don't know if it is just me, or if I am not alone on this, but to be quite honest I am a sucker for pen and paper. There is something so much more personal about my hand literally taking me away with ink. It's not like I hate typing or anything. I actually write a lot of stuff for school on computers, but it's never anything I want to write... So here I am. I really decided to start a blog because as an aspiring writer I want to see how many people would literally be interested in what I had to say... I'm going to do some following on here as well, since I am extremely interested in others writings as well...And obviously I love to read, so I hope that this is the beginning of a very interesting blog and an interesting journey into others blogs as well...
So from me and my American Bulldog, Echo.....Hello, Goodbye, and Come Back!

Just a Few Hours Rest

Tomorrow is going to be such a long day. After all, I haven't had a wink of sleep since Thursday. Is it normal to feel delirious? It's like the first time I smoked weed. My eyes are so heavy and my vision is definitely altered. Bright lights upset the soft green hue in my eyes, and now I think it's time to observe my behavior. Let's pick apart at it, like psychologists, and try to figure out the insignificant meaning of my actions. I smoked a cigarette a while ago, and I want one right now. Should I just spark it here? That wouldn't help my observations at all, cause I would be doing the exact opposite. Oh dear, now it appears my other half is in need of some physical time. I must be going now, it is rather late and I just can't possibly imagine anything right now except brain disorders and sheep. Yes, sheep. Jumping over a fence underneath the big bright moon. Once in a while though, you'll get a "chubby" sheep. You know, the ones who can't really jump over the fence, they just sort of plop on and over the damn thing. It's rather funny actually. You should take some time to watch these guys. Well, I am off now... To the land of dreams. Let's see if I remember any, and maybe I shall write it down for you. Heh.